how's life?

i asked a question to someone today.not in person.

"how's life?"

and she said "great" 

made me think awhile.if you'd ask me,i'd probably answer "life sucked" or "life is flat".maybe because now i'm having the down side of life when i feel miserable and stuff.life is great.and i'm like "is it?".i dunno.if it came out of my mouth,it would be called naive.because i don't think life is great at all right now.i'm sorry.i guess i'm just a bit shocked from what happened.but then i started thinking again.maybe life is great.

i have a mother that i love so much and my biggest fear is if she weren't here,

i have a father that i love so much even though we're not that close,

i have a big brother that i love so much because he's so funny and weird,

i have a little sister that i love so much because she's ridiculous and hilarious,

i have little brothers that i love so much because they're kinda cute,

i have friends that make fun of me but deep down i know they love me as much as i love them,

i have food,

i have shelter,

i have internet,

i have enough money to buy snacks and stuff,

i have a dog that just recovers itself after eating poison.

maybe life is great.

and now i understand what she meant by "life is great".life is great because i have it all.i now know what i have and what i really care about.i feel like i have everything i've ever needed.

i have love.

the one thing that a human being couldn't live without.well maybe oxygen is important too,but still,when you feel love,you will feel how warm and how comfortable it is.so maybe life is great just like what she said.because we all have one love.one heart.lets get together and feel alright-one love.

oh and um i wanna tell you something.i'm weird.i don't know,but somehow,everytime i listen to "lanslide",i feel weird.i feel pain like as if it stabs my heart.

i took my love and i took it down
i climbed a mountain and i turned around
and i saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
when a landslide brought me down


oh mirror in the sky,what is love?
can a child within my heart rise above?
can i sail through the changing,ocean tides?
can i handle the seasons of my life?


well i've been afraid of changing
cause i've built my life around you
but time makes you bolder
children get older


and i'm getting older too.

i thought i wont get this emotional.i thought i was a strong person.but in reality,i'm just not.

i wish we had another time.i wish we had another place.

because my feelings for you are wrong at this time.

a landslide just brought me down.

and i'm disappointed with myself for not having courage to make changes between us.because i like it better this way.because maybe if i confess my feelings for you,we cannot go back like we used to.like we used to chat,like we used to laugh at stuff,like we used to.

but i'm still disappointed because i'm too scared about the consequences and the risks.i am weak.