first week of college

It's days like today I miss you. It's hearts like yours that bring me joy. It's kisses like those that make me cry. And it's a love like ours that terrifies me.

We're forever in my head, but apart in my heart. I try to say I'm sorry every day, but your eyes in tears prevent it. I'm to be the rock to your mess that I never was. I'm to be the steady hand to your quivering.

But I'm quivering, too. I'm trembling. I'm shaking. I'm terrified. I need nothing more than I need you. And you need nothing more than steady me. Well I'm not steady. I'm not steady at all.

I may never be.

Because that's what loving you… does to me.