isn't anyone tryna find me..

nobody really cares, don't they. hahah

Glee 3x01: The Purple Piano Project (review)

HEY SUP CRACKERS. so i was just thinking, LIKE I USED TO, glee season 3 is awesome. well at least the first episode was such A BOMB. and i've decided to make a review for you all about it. and i watched this episode for like 5 or 6 times, so... yeaaaahhh.

I HAVE NO LIFE OKAY STOP JUDGING. and the purple piano project was awesome and at first i was like KDGHSUKHDFJKSFH but then i was like

okay so let's cut the chase and go for the real deal. of course the episode started with interviews from jacob ben israel and blahblahblah. let's just see pictures because you people are too lazy to read all my emotions that i'm having because of this episode. 

THIS IS JUST... I CAN'T... KLAINE. IS. LOVE. oh my blaine why you such a sweet boyfriend

I'M SORRY I JUST CAN'T... MY KLAINE FEELINGS.okay no more klaine

YOU'RE A GODDESS

BACK TO KLAINE. OH MY GOD THE AMOUT OF CUTENESS. LOOK AT HIM. okay okay i'll stop with the klaine.

HEY YOU. SO....

QUINN YOU'RE GAY IS SHOWING

JUST KIDDING I WILL NEVER EVER EVER STOP KLAINE FROM KLAINING. WHY ARE THEY SO SWEET OMG I FEEL LIKE CRYING OVER THEIR SWEETNESS. PEOPLE AROUND ME WHY YOU NO AS SWEET AS KLAINE

BACK TO QUINN AND HER JOINT CIGARETTE ADAJKDBGDAKJ YOU'RE MY NEW RELIGION

WE'RE A FAMILY.

OH MY GOD EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU...

HHHNNNGGG WHAT? SORRY I CAN'T HEAR YOU OVER QUINN'S AWESOMENESS

HOW CUTE

YES THIS IS EPIC. so darren get to sing it's not unusual AND IT WAS AKLJSDHAJKD AND THE CHEERIOS AND THE SANTANA AND THE BURNING PIANO AND THE EVERYTHING

OH MY GOD I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING THIS WAS HILARIOUS AS FUCK CHRIS..

I JUST CAN'T....

CHRIS STOP IT. SERIOUSLY CHRIS STOP IT. AW YOU STOP IT. JUST STOP.

THIS IS FUHCKING ADWORABLEEEEEEE DING DONG

SWEET.

INTENSE?

okay so overall the purple piano project was just great and sweet and cute and adorable. and eps 2 "i am unicorn" was airing yesterday and i wanna watch it now BUT MY INTERNET CONNECTION IS PRETTY MUCH SHITTY RIGHT NOW SO... IT HURTS. and eps 3 "asian f" okay wow. AND FROM WHAT I'VE HEARD I AM UNICORN IS SO EMOTIONAL AND SHIT AND FUCK BETH IS COMING AND THE KURT AND THE BRITTANY AND THE BRITTANA AND UNICORNS I MEAN COME ON EVERYONE LOVES UNICORNS AM I RIGHT? YEAH OF COURSE I AM. okay i'm stopping.

People I Would Fuck

HEY CRACKERS. so i was just thinking. i had a nap this afternoon and i had a dream. lol i know i'm so tacky. i had this dream about me making a list of people i would fuck in my school. first of all, i had this dream probably because of jenna mourey and her awesome dogs kermit and marbles. much love from me :* but then i realized i made a group called the suka bilang because of jenna mourey and her video people i would fuck. so it's about telling the person we like that we like him or her. and please give a huge round of applause for naomi and evodie who had done this project. thank you for your bravery, both of you. i appreciate it. and i just realized that this is my turn to make a move. the other reason why i have to make a move is because i invented this theory, so okay. and i think that it would be great to do it here on my blog. and here goes my confession.

i am not, i repeat, i am not having any crush or crove or feelings towards anyone at this moment.

i mean, i've said it before and i've said it loud and clear. because please, i'm in a middle high school in a country named indonesia. wow. even the name of this country is so unattractive. and junior high schoolers are not really my thing. especially the boys. ew. so, no thanks. nobody is impressive enough for me. and i know you might think that i'm such a big liar because i made post and stuff about how i love this person and shit. they weren't lies. it was true. but it was before i had a realization that the love i had for this person was never existed. i made it all up in my head. i thought it was love, but i'm too young to even say the word love. i promise from now on not to underestimate or to say the word love when it's really not worth it.

back to the topic. oh i have love. somewhere in there. it's like hiding because.. well ya know. problems. and i'm not going to let it go before i found the person that's worth a shot. and i haven't found him or her yet. i think it's going to be a long time before i can open myself. so let's just see, okay.

and i titled this post people i would fuck for a reason. it's because i want to tell you all my list of the top 5 people that i would literally fuck. i mean, fucking is really an easy thing to do, right? it doesn't involve feelings or anything. BUT I'M FOURTEEN I DON'T KNOW A THING ABOUT FUCKING. this is going to be so hard. but let's try. oh and i will add a few things below the list about my dream. because my dream is about people i would fuck in my school. so let me write that list here too.


naya rivera. of course this woman will be on the number one in my list of people i would fuck. she's so awesome and everything. boobs.

chris brown. probably, maybe, i guess. i mean, he's kind of hot and he got these tattoos all over him.

chris colfer. DO WANT. gorgeous human being

adam levine. yeah it's because he has tattoos and an unshaved face hnnggg

IT'S SO HARD but i'm going to choose grace helbig HA! she'd make a great fuck buddy i guess.

okay that's the end of my list. there are so much more people that i want to add on the list like all of the glee cast, emma stone, jenna mourey, eminem *oh i would*, shay mitchell, avril lavigne, justin bieber *i mean, why not?*, wiz khalifa, flo rida *well.. yeah...*, lady gaga *preferably jo calderone*, rihanna, harry styles, all members of paramore, the singer guy from the script, nick jonas *maybe?*, cody simpson, nicki minaj *please*, lil wayne, etc etc etc. point is, there are so many people that i would fuck.

and in my dream, i remember each and every one of my school mates that is on that list. and i will not write names here. it will be hell of awkward. teachers too oh my god i'm so fucked up. okay so this list contains a few boys and girls from the generation of #54. but to be really really honest, all the people in that list were the people that i would literally fuck. seriously, i would. so my dream was kind of just being frank. 

oh my god i just love you.

Here's to the kids who try their hardest to be good enough for everyone. Who spend hours scrolling through pictures and quotes that describe their mood. Who wait online for that 1 certain person to sign on just to gather up the nerve to say hello. Who listen to the same song dozens of times because the lyrics mean a lot. Who deserve so much more than they get and are willing to fight for it. And whose wish upon shooting star was wasted on someone who will never care.

scrub my face like a motherfucker

sometimes i just look at naya rivera and cry because YOU'RE PERFECT YOU'RE PERFECT GIRL I'D DO ANYTHING TO BE WITH YOU WHATEVER IT TAKES LALANANA ~. sometimes i just don't. and yes that was a song.

sometimes i just look at heather morris and cry because LOLHEYAISSOENDGAME. sometimes i just don't. bra swap

sometimes i just look at lea michele and cry because YEAH WHO DOESN'T LOVE A SEXY ASS TOUCH A HOLIC. sometimes i just don't. sometimes i just look at every single one of the glee cast and cry because OH GOD BE MY BEST FRIENDS BUT OH YOU CAN'T YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW MY EXISTENCE. sometimes i just don't. life is so not fair.

sometimes i act like i can haze someone. bra swap? more like... yeaahh.. so.. bra swap? more like bruh swap you up cause you suck

sometimes i just don't.

sometimes i watch grace helbig or jenna mourey and cry because LOLLETSBEBESTFRIENDS. sometimes i just don't. sometimes i just look at myself in the mirror and laugh. sometimes i just don't. sometimes i do my math homework *lies*. sometimes i just don't *everytime*. sometimes i dream that i'll meet naya rivera and she hugs me. sometimes i just don't. sometimes i have weird dreams about people in my school *everyfuckingnight*. sometimes i just don't *never*. SO. YEAH. DO YOU EVEN GO HERE?

I JUST HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS

the two of you should like, hang out more often or something. seriously. do it. oh my god. okay. everything about this gif.

SUKA BILANG...

Catching up

HEY. long time no posting and blah and whatever. so, okay i'm just gonna make this post to let you catch up with my life. well, not actually my life. i don't know, okay. sometimes i just don't *emotional teenage tone*. lol okay so i guess i'm gonna start.

i've been reading fanfictions lately. A LOT. like, seriously. bunch of em. well, only glee ones. preferably brittana. lol i ship them hard okay so just stop judging *watery eyes*. SO i found a very very very very awesome fic. well, not that awesome. but awesome enough to make me feel weird. DO YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO FEEL WEIRD? not emotionaly weird, PHYSICALLY. lol i know. there's just something i feel betw-. okay i'm going to stop right there. IF YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING. no, of course you don't. girls in our age rarely read fanfics that's not appropriate for our age and that sucks because it makes me feel like i'm not a girl BECAUSE GIRLS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE MATURE AND I'M NOT BECAUSE I READ STUFF THAT I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO READ. *clearing throat* okay. i'm not gonna publish or share the fic here because that would totally ruining my reputation as a good girl. YEAH I'M A GOOD GIRL, PROBLEM? but actually it's not like a big deal or something because i think it's okay for us, boys and girls, to break the rules! lol not really breaking rules, just doing something that we aren't used to do. AND it is also normal to feel this way because, well let's just get real. we're teenagers. we always have the wants to do something. we always have the curiosity of something. if you know what i mean. and it is fluff. i'd tell the stuff i read if i was a boy. but a proper lady won't tell ;) *LIKE A BOSS*. the point is, i think this fic is going to be too HARD for you guys to handle. IT WAS HARD FOR ME. i'm not even kidding. too much smu-. oops i'll have to stop again. okay best if i stop talking about this. *coughing awkwardly*

i feel uncomfortable to write about things that happens in school now. it is mainly because this new class. yeah. fucking uncool. so fucking uncool if you ask me. teachers are so shitty. ah just fuck. fuck fuck fuck. okay for those of you who's in my class, no offense, okay. it's not you guys. it's me. i'm so closed about new things. you know me. well, maybe not just because of that. it's because of madesu and how much i miss them *people around me saying aaaaaww*. maybe it's because how awesome madesu was. WAS *CREYS*. yeah they were irreplaceable *more aaawws*. maybe it's because madesu was too awesome so i set my bar way too high for the awesomeness in my class and it can't reach the level of awesomeness that i want. so sorry. i'm still the joker though. I'M STILL A TROLL. suck it up. I MISS MADESU A BUNCH. and i love every single one of you. it's like the most perfect combination of people ever. WE'RE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER GUYS *sob sob*

i wanna focus on my grades. YES. i'm fucking serious. you bet. something happened. and it snapped me. someone that's really important in my life told me this

you are amazing. i believe in you. you can achieve anything in life. i have huge hopes on you. you're my favourite person. please. i want you to make me proud. even though i'm already proud of you right now. 

*wipe tears* i feel so fucking stupid. what am i doing? oh my god. i'm wasting my life. i have something ahead of me. and i need to fucking try. YEAH LET'S MAKE SOMEONE PROUD.

I'M A SERIOUSLY FUCKED UP TROLL. why? remember that post i did about "his funny crush confession"? WELL GUESS WHAT? I MADE IT ALL UP. HA! AND YOU SUCKERS BELIEVED IT. I'M A HUGE TROLL AND PEOPLE FELL FOR IT HARD. YEAHAHAHAH seriously guys. do you really believe that some guy in vincentius could be that romantic? no way. boys are boys. and i'm hopelessly romantic. that's why I'M SO FUCKING CHEESY. yeah i'm a 14 year old that has a really high bar when it comes to romance and relationships. i mean, come on. don't you just love romance? well i love it. it's like the most awesome thing in every relationship. WHAT IS A RELATIONSHIP WITHOUT ROMANCE? so, guess what? boys and girls in junior high are just so unattractive in my opinion. NOBODY HAS THE ROMANCE FACTOR, OKAY. maybe they have the romance factor but they're like too afraid to show it? WHY COULD YOU POSSIBLY BE AFRAID TO SHOW ROMANCE? TELL ME WHY. romance is beautiful. you guys should try it sometimes. seriously. do it.

glee. SEASON 3 WILL BE THE BOMB. the class of 2012 will be the most awesome class ever! with damian samuel lindsay and alex as juniors, it will be the most fantabulous epic season ever. seriously i got so many fucking chills from just watching all the promo. okay, so my wish for season 3 :

• brittana. 
• i want kurt santana and dave to be best friends
• FABREVANS. please. i want sam and quinn together
• damsay. i want damian to be with lindsay even though she'll be in glee just for 2 eps
• klaine won't hurt.
• i want artie to be able to walk! HA!
• aaaahhh i want holy back with mr schue
• lots and lots of songs
• heather morris dances 
• more naya solo
• etc etc etc

and i still haven't heard about the glee 3D concert movie. in singapore and malaysia, yes. BUT INDONESIA. fuck i can't wait to get the fuck out of here.

vloggers. so lately i've been hanging out with my friend, youtube. yeah youtube is my new BFF *creys in room because i'm forever alone*. YEAH i don't know many vloggers, but these are my favourites. GRACE HELBIG. definitely. i think i love her the most. her face.... it's shiny. KINGSLEY. of course. who doesn't love kingsley? JENNA MOUREY. gurrrlll i fucking love you. keeping it real gorgeous. RYAN HIGA. ya'll know him. asians. 

everything happens and i'm watching while not liking every single bit of it. okay, first of all, i'm just saying here. jealousy. that's it. LOL I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THIS IS. I'M JUST AN EMOTIONAL ASSHOLE OKAY SO JUST SHUT UP.

i am working on madesu chapter 20. GUYS THIS CHAPTER TOOK MUCH LONGER TIME THAN I EXPECTED. so yea i'm still working on madesu. i love the fic and i have so many incredible stories for each and every character. YEAAAAHHHHH so for those who actually reads my fic, please be patient. i love you and you love me, so we might as well love each other *what*. hmm chapter 20 isn't going to suck but it isn't going to be mind blowing either. so i don't know. let's just see. i'm like 45 % finished HAHA lol it's gonna be awesome, i promise. 

I KINDA LIKE R&B NOW. lol i don't know maybe it's because i don't know whatever. EH BUT I FOUND A SONG THAT GOT STUCK IN MY HEAD LATELY. you know what the song is? well imma tell you right now. 

WELL IMMA RIP MY CLOTHES OFF TAKE A LEAP AND SURF TO THE CROWD YEAH YEAH DRIPPIN DOWN MA NECK SOAKING WET SINK OR SWIM OR YOU'LL DROWN YEAH YEAH LET'S GET A LITTLE WEEEEEEEETTTT I LIKE THE WAY YOU'RE WORKING ME OUT LELJHRFWIORFHOSIKC

lol and i just realized how pervy this song is. aaaaww i love pervy songs. especially when they talk about boobs. lol no pervy songs are bullshit that looks like it's coming from a 5 year old. seriously. stop it.

crove. i just wanted to officially say that the term "crove" is mine. YES I DON'T KNOW OKAY IT'S JUST SO GOOD TO HEAR SOMETHING LIKE CROVE. it's so genius. it's like crush and love together. yeah it's that kind of feeling that you have when you like someone but it's more than just a crush but it's also not love. so like in the middle. CROVE. oh my fucking god i'm a genius. no, not really. it's just a random word. but still, i love using it. so who do you guys have a crove on? tell me? erm, no? okay.

i guess that is all. there are so many things that i want to talk about but i think i forgot. bye fuckers.

Talking to myself because i am my own consultant. Married to the money, fuck the world, that's adultery. You full of shit, you close your mouth and let your ass talk. Young money eating, all you haters do is add salt.

season 3 promo

hell is so hot right now. such a bamf. ssshhh just open this and listen to it while looking at this gif