Catching up

HEY. long time no posting and blah and whatever. so, okay i'm just gonna make this post to let you catch up with my life. well, not actually my life. i don't know, okay. sometimes i just don't *emotional teenage tone*. lol okay so i guess i'm gonna start.

i've been reading fanfictions lately. A LOT. like, seriously. bunch of em. well, only glee ones. preferably brittana. lol i ship them hard okay so just stop judging *watery eyes*. SO i found a very very very very awesome fic. well, not that awesome. but awesome enough to make me feel weird. DO YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO FEEL WEIRD? not emotionaly weird, PHYSICALLY. lol i know. there's just something i feel betw-. okay i'm going to stop right there. IF YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING. no, of course you don't. girls in our age rarely read fanfics that's not appropriate for our age and that sucks because it makes me feel like i'm not a girl BECAUSE GIRLS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE MATURE AND I'M NOT BECAUSE I READ STUFF THAT I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO READ. *clearing throat* okay. i'm not gonna publish or share the fic here because that would totally ruining my reputation as a good girl. YEAH I'M A GOOD GIRL, PROBLEM? but actually it's not like a big deal or something because i think it's okay for us, boys and girls, to break the rules! lol not really breaking rules, just doing something that we aren't used to do. AND it is also normal to feel this way because, well let's just get real. we're teenagers. we always have the wants to do something. we always have the curiosity of something. if you know what i mean. and it is fluff. i'd tell the stuff i read if i was a boy. but a proper lady won't tell ;) *LIKE A BOSS*. the point is, i think this fic is going to be too HARD for you guys to handle. IT WAS HARD FOR ME. i'm not even kidding. too much smu-. oops i'll have to stop again. okay best if i stop talking about this. *coughing awkwardly*

i feel uncomfortable to write about things that happens in school now. it is mainly because this new class. yeah. fucking uncool. so fucking uncool if you ask me. teachers are so shitty. ah just fuck. fuck fuck fuck. okay for those of you who's in my class, no offense, okay. it's not you guys. it's me. i'm so closed about new things. you know me. well, maybe not just because of that. it's because of madesu and how much i miss them *people around me saying aaaaaww*. maybe it's because how awesome madesu was. WAS *CREYS*. yeah they were irreplaceable *more aaawws*. maybe it's because madesu was too awesome so i set my bar way too high for the awesomeness in my class and it can't reach the level of awesomeness that i want. so sorry. i'm still the joker though. I'M STILL A TROLL. suck it up. I MISS MADESU A BUNCH. and i love every single one of you. it's like the most perfect combination of people ever. WE'RE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER GUYS *sob sob*

i wanna focus on my grades. YES. i'm fucking serious. you bet. something happened. and it snapped me. someone that's really important in my life told me this

you are amazing. i believe in you. you can achieve anything in life. i have huge hopes on you. you're my favourite person. please. i want you to make me proud. even though i'm already proud of you right now. 

*wipe tears* i feel so fucking stupid. what am i doing? oh my god. i'm wasting my life. i have something ahead of me. and i need to fucking try. YEAH LET'S MAKE SOMEONE PROUD.

I'M A SERIOUSLY FUCKED UP TROLL. why? remember that post i did about "his funny crush confession"? WELL GUESS WHAT? I MADE IT ALL UP. HA! AND YOU SUCKERS BELIEVED IT. I'M A HUGE TROLL AND PEOPLE FELL FOR IT HARD. YEAHAHAHAH seriously guys. do you really believe that some guy in vincentius could be that romantic? no way. boys are boys. and i'm hopelessly romantic. that's why I'M SO FUCKING CHEESY. yeah i'm a 14 year old that has a really high bar when it comes to romance and relationships. i mean, come on. don't you just love romance? well i love it. it's like the most awesome thing in every relationship. WHAT IS A RELATIONSHIP WITHOUT ROMANCE? so, guess what? boys and girls in junior high are just so unattractive in my opinion. NOBODY HAS THE ROMANCE FACTOR, OKAY. maybe they have the romance factor but they're like too afraid to show it? WHY COULD YOU POSSIBLY BE AFRAID TO SHOW ROMANCE? TELL ME WHY. romance is beautiful. you guys should try it sometimes. seriously. do it.

glee. SEASON 3 WILL BE THE BOMB. the class of 2012 will be the most awesome class ever! with damian samuel lindsay and alex as juniors, it will be the most fantabulous epic season ever. seriously i got so many fucking chills from just watching all the promo. okay, so my wish for season 3 :

• brittana. 
• i want kurt santana and dave to be best friends
• FABREVANS. please. i want sam and quinn together
• damsay. i want damian to be with lindsay even though she'll be in glee just for 2 eps
• klaine won't hurt.
• i want artie to be able to walk! HA!
• aaaahhh i want holy back with mr schue
• lots and lots of songs
• heather morris dances 
• more naya solo
• etc etc etc

and i still haven't heard about the glee 3D concert movie. in singapore and malaysia, yes. BUT INDONESIA. fuck i can't wait to get the fuck out of here.

vloggers. so lately i've been hanging out with my friend, youtube. yeah youtube is my new BFF *creys in room because i'm forever alone*. YEAH i don't know many vloggers, but these are my favourites. GRACE HELBIG. definitely. i think i love her the most. her face.... it's shiny. KINGSLEY. of course. who doesn't love kingsley? JENNA MOUREY. gurrrlll i fucking love you. keeping it real gorgeous. RYAN HIGA. ya'll know him. asians. 

everything happens and i'm watching while not liking every single bit of it. okay, first of all, i'm just saying here. jealousy. that's it. LOL I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THIS IS. I'M JUST AN EMOTIONAL ASSHOLE OKAY SO JUST SHUT UP.

i am working on madesu chapter 20. GUYS THIS CHAPTER TOOK MUCH LONGER TIME THAN I EXPECTED. so yea i'm still working on madesu. i love the fic and i have so many incredible stories for each and every character. YEAAAAHHHHH so for those who actually reads my fic, please be patient. i love you and you love me, so we might as well love each other *what*. hmm chapter 20 isn't going to suck but it isn't going to be mind blowing either. so i don't know. let's just see. i'm like 45 % finished HAHA lol it's gonna be awesome, i promise. 

I KINDA LIKE R&B NOW. lol i don't know maybe it's because i don't know whatever. EH BUT I FOUND A SONG THAT GOT STUCK IN MY HEAD LATELY. you know what the song is? well imma tell you right now. 

WELL IMMA RIP MY CLOTHES OFF TAKE A LEAP AND SURF TO THE CROWD YEAH YEAH DRIPPIN DOWN MA NECK SOAKING WET SINK OR SWIM OR YOU'LL DROWN YEAH YEAH LET'S GET A LITTLE WEEEEEEEETTTT I LIKE THE WAY YOU'RE WORKING ME OUT LELJHRFWIORFHOSIKC

lol and i just realized how pervy this song is. aaaaww i love pervy songs. especially when they talk about boobs. lol no pervy songs are bullshit that looks like it's coming from a 5 year old. seriously. stop it.

crove. i just wanted to officially say that the term "crove" is mine. YES I DON'T KNOW OKAY IT'S JUST SO GOOD TO HEAR SOMETHING LIKE CROVE. it's so genius. it's like crush and love together. yeah it's that kind of feeling that you have when you like someone but it's more than just a crush but it's also not love. so like in the middle. CROVE. oh my fucking god i'm a genius. no, not really. it's just a random word. but still, i love using it. so who do you guys have a crove on? tell me? erm, no? okay.

i guess that is all. there are so many things that i want to talk about but i think i forgot. bye fuckers.