Minggu, 31 Juli 2011

life i dunno i wanna write something but not in my mother language okay just deal with it i'm fresher than a motherfucker okay that doesn't make any sense

  1. i haven't posted anything lol i know but i dunno why maybe it's because i'm trying to finish madesu chapter 19 but it's so looooonggg and i just can't....... it's too beautiful and everything ;_;
  2. CHRIS BROWN. i'm so into him. and he reminds me of someone in vct 54 lol idk why and he's not even black. complete opposite. he's chinese. lololol
  3. my hip hop heart is raaaaccciiiingggg like a horse. or like a dog. I RUN LIKE A DOG.
  4. haha fuck life
  5. okay so everytime i look at my facebook home i found lyrics from idk a korea song? it's about 'i'm ugly don't lie to my face telling i'm pretty' lol and i'm being like 'what?' i'm not saying that you're pretty lol if you're ugly i can tell already. and thank me i'm gorgeous. deal with it. seriously everytime i look at the mirror i'm gonna be like 'oh i'm still so gorgeous' not mental at all. not at all.
  6. grace helbig. just.... i love her so so much. i literally spend 50 % of my online time just to watch her vlog. 
  7. okay the next numbers will be quotes that got stuck in my head. maybe not quotes but song lyrics and sentences that i've made by myself. i know i'm so awesome and amazing and awesome and oh my god and awesome ;_;
  8. i like..... your style
  9. IMMA SPACE BOUND ROCKETSHIP AND YOUR HEART IS THE MOOOOOOONN
  10. thinking of you working up my appetite (lol this song) 
  11. trying to believe. you said you love me but you don't knowww 
  12. because i trust him to keep her (LOL THIS IS FOR SOMEONE IN VCT 54 LOL SERIOUSLY I FEEL SO WEIRD WRITING THIS AND YOU TWO CAN MAKE A GREAT COUPLE ;_; ) 
  13. swag so mean. what does that even mean? 
  14. I'M FRESHER THAN A MOTHERFUCKER (love this song tho) 
  15. you've been hazed! (i wanna be hazed ;_; )
  16. WHY CAN'T WE ALL JUST GET ALONG?
  17. question: how to make the sexiest opening for a speech? answer: like this "ladies and gentlemen, thank you all for coming." *gasp* (k so this made me laugh) #daily grace commenting on comments i see what you did there.
  18. oh ma gawwddd who are you crushing at? why you so mysterious, woman
  19. CAUSE RIGHT NOW I NEED YOUR SMILE 
  20. where are you now lol suddenly i wanna chat with you. just.... fun
  21. MY EYES ARE RED. i've been burning
  22. AM I OVERREACTING FOR FEELING THIS WAY? 
  23. will we ever say the words we're feeling? cause if you feel the same how am i supposed to knoooowww?? (lol hate finchel ew ew) 
  24. she's the slut, he's the asshole, and i'm the bitch (idk what even is this?) 
  25. i'd fuck you (oh wow it sounded so weird from a 14 year old lolol) just kidding ew you wish
  26. oh my god. they're like little wands. 
  27. DAILY GRACE IS GONNA TEACH YOU HOW TO DO SOMETHINGGG
  28. Come out of the clouds, Q. Come be with me instead (AKJDHKADBFKH yep still reading SHAfD) 
  29. TAKE ME AWAY. A SECRET PLACE.
  30. SEXY FRIDAY SEXY FRIDAY SEXY FRIDAY SEXY FRIDAY
  31. i think i love you. i think i love you too. #i ship mimi it was always on
  32. is trying so hard to fall out of loveeeeee. oh yeah i failed.
  33. I'M 13 YEARS OLD AND DRIVING 
  34. grace face *ding* 
  35. i'm a troll and nobody realizes it
  36. so freaking charming.
  37. i don't see him as a lover material. get it? 
  38. i wanna be a wall for her. a wall that she could lean on. OH MY QUINN YOU'RE SO AWESOME AND AWESOME. you love rachel. outstanding lesbian award.
  39. WIWIWIWIWIWIWIWI (do you see what i did there?) kul.
  40. no way the outstanding lesbian award should be for brittana.
  41. wait on second thought it should be for naomily.
  42. or minky
  43. nope. naomily.
  44. yep. naomily it is.
  45. frankyyyyy ily
  46. i wanted you bad. i'm not through with that. (you see what i did there? lol i'm the lamest person ever) 
  47. i think i'm swearing too much. this blog is like a piece of shit with too many fucks in it. what if an adult found this blog? what if it's my parents (lol what is parents) worse. what if it's one of my teachers? what if......... what if you're the one for me? and you're the one for i? okay i'm not making any sense.
  48. I KEEP YOUR PICTURE IN MY CAR. lol you stalker ew go away i hate you.
  49. sketch
  50. trying so hard to draw things. failed failed failed failed
  51. OOOOHH LOOK AT ME I'M A MONKEY OOOHH (LOL THO SERIOUSLY grace) 
  52. i'm just a crazy fan that doesn't know the difference between tv and reality
  53. today i realized that i like purple. fml. 
  54. you've done weird things with a ham.
  55. kepo kepo kepo kepo kepo kepo (everytime i say this word, i feel like a turtle) 
  56. i like turtles
  57. do you? 
  58. then i have to buy you this necklace. so you can like turtles too. like me. 
  59. lol
  60. chavo
  61. now you've kissed in the rain
  62. so cheesy
  63. i hate chavo
  64. nope. i love chavo
  65. then again, i love mimi
  66. what? 
  67. oh thank you
  68. wait what?
  69. what am i doing? ha! 69 *giggle giggle*
  70. what are you doing?
  71. then what is this? 
  72. idk 
  73. nobody asked you to be born 
  74. kidding. i love you 
  75. it's okay. let's cut ourself and be emo together!
  76. sounds like a plan 
  77. yeah and we'll go to a quiet alley at night 
  78. and cut ourself again
  79. oh we're so emo
  80. and then we'll get a tattoo that says 'i like cutting' on our forehead
  81. it'll be so emo 
  82. nerd + emo = nemo 
  83. see what i did there?
  84. the fish nemo. get it? nemo. nerd emo. get it?
  85. lalala
  86. nemo nemo nemo 
  87. it's like christina grimmie and alex goot together.
  88. nemo
  89. big ass heart is big ass
  90. is it gif of gif? 
  91. option one: taylor swift her
  92. everybody loves glee
  93. everybody hates glee
  94. gleeks will kill you 
  95. maybe i wanna do what bunnies do with you
  96. maybe i think you're cute and funny 
  97. way up here you and i you and i 
  98. what is in your head??? i wanna knowwww because i wanna knoww because i careee i want you to get rich and buy your parents home in the south of franceee and buy everyone sweaters and teach them how do danceee and build a house on a mountain making everybody look like ants way up there you and i you and i 
  99. i feel like a carrot
  100. everytime i listen to roll up by mr wiz khalifa i remember someone at school lol this song is so him. he's chinese. fml.

Minggu, 24 Juli 2011

Amy Winehouse 14/09/1983 - 23/07/2011

this is happening, isn't it? is this really happening? did she die? i still can't believe it and i don't even know why. i mean, i'm not a big fan of her or something. but it's just so sad. she was a great musician. age 27. can you imagine? argh i hate drugs. they ruined talented people. and people should just stop bullshitting about how she deserves to die because she didn't go to rehab. just shut the fuck up. give the woman respect for fuck's sake. and also shit about norwey is more important and stuff like that. yes, what happened it norwey was terrible. but it doesn't mean that we have to give all of our attention there. we just lost one of our talented musicians here. i'm not saying she's more important than norwey, but she deserves to get attention too. people are such idiots.

rest in peace, amy winehouse.

Rabu, 20 Juli 2011

Madesu:One And Only

HEYO chapter 18 is in the air. i know i love madesu so much T.T i mean, it's like the only class where i can make this kind of fic. because the people in it are just so fic material lol. like, the cheerios venna naomi and chacha. or like the football players fransis michael evodie and darrent. or the chinese and all the people (from looks and stuff) are just so perfect for this omg i love you all. freaking beautiful people (not saying dadu or night three are ugly people lol not at all, you're all beautiful i guess and i love you too.... sometimes). so okay this chapter will be about their trip to cijantung for two days. fyi the sectionals will be held monday. and the trip is on thursday and friday. they'll of course spend a night there. anyways, enjoy!

what.the.hell.

michael was speechless.what the hell was that?he barely knew the girl and here she was, kissing him?it was weird.no,it was way more than weird.it was the weirdest thing ever.and the weirder part was,he didn't know how to react and feel about this.

when the kiss broke,he opened his mouth.wanted to say something,but it didn't come out.so he closed it and did it again over and over.

naomi dropped her jaw in surprise.

what?ugh were they kissing?wait, that's not right.wait naomi,wait.maybe it's just a shadow thingy that made like as if they were kissing.don't think about it.michael wouldn't cheat on you.moreover,with your best friend

she thought to herself.she wanted to ring the doorbell,but she just couldn't.she was afraid if things will get awkward.she walked away (home) while trying to not think about it.she tried to believe that they weren't kissing.she went home walking.

chacha put her finger on michael's mouth "you don't have to say anything" she said

"but.... what was... what was that?" he asked

chacha looked at the floor "i... i like you"

"what?"

"i like you,michael" she said again while lifting her head up.but she didn't look at his eyes.it was like she avoided them.

"i think you should go now" he said

he led her to the door and shut it quickly.it felt like a dream.and he didn't know wheather it was a bad or a good one.he went to bed and try to forget it.but how could he?

thursday

the juniors were already gathered in the gym for directions on the fieldtrip.

"children, as you know, we will do a fieldtrip to cijantung for two days and we'll spend the night there.now,let's just go straight to the bus.you'll go by groups.the groups are from the club that you're currently joining.as for them who go to two clubs,you can just choose one of them" said mr kraeng, the head committee

"so what bus are you gonna go with?" asked venna to thalia.weirdly,the became friends.not best,but pretty good.still,thalia planned something.she always had something in her mind

"um,i dunno.what about the madesu club's bus?"

"sure.i'll sit with you" said venna

"cool" said thalia with a smile "um,you guys?" she asked to naomi and chacha who was apparently quiet.they didn't talk to each other like they used to.

"err,madesu i guess" said naomi

"madesu's bus" chacha added

of course they didn't want to go with the cheerios bus.it would be mad awkward.and they weren't close to the other cheerleader.

there they were,the madesu club.all in one bus.the trip will be a little long,so they wanted to get comfort.naomi sat with michael, fransis with chacha, venna with thalia, icha with eka, jodi with jessica, yasmine with alfons, darrent with evodie, albert.... well albert sat with mr veri.poor him.mr veri talk to him like an unstopable machine.it was terrifying.

suddenly,chacha stood and ask michael to switch seats for a minute.michael asked naomi if it was okay and she only nodded.michael looked at chacha awkwardly and sat on chacha's seat beside fransis.they talked about..... well,guys stuff.chacha sat next to naomi and started a conversation.

"i think i need to talk to you" she said

"uh huh" said naomi while still reading her magz

"um... something happened" said chacha while playing with her fingers.naomi looked at that movement for awhile.she knew that movement.she knew that it means chacha was nervous

"it's okay cha.i know"

"you know?" asked chacha while looking at her

"yes.i was in front of his house" said naomi while still not moving her eyes from her magazine

"and...." she waited

"what?" asked naomi confused

"and you're not mad?"

"why should i?" said naomi "i think it's normal.i mean, you're hot and everything and maybe it was just kind of like an accident" she talked like it was a normal thing.but chacha could still hear the sarcasm from her voice

"but... wait,you think i'm hot?" said chacha

"of course.you're a cheerleader.duh" said naomi "your job is to look hot.like me"

"so, you're okay with him cheating on you?" asked chacha with a confused face

"he's not cheating on me" she said "he wouldn't.i know he wouldn't.and i know that he'll tell about this to me not long after you talk to me"

"how could you not be mad?" asked chacha again stubbornly

"do you want me to be?" asked naomi while closing her magazine and looked at her

"um, no.sorry" she said.she stood up and switched seats with michael again

both naomi and michael acted like nothing just happened,but naomi said "something you want to talk to me about, love?"

michael looked at his lap "ah the hell with it.you already knew it from her" he said "i'm really really sorry"

"i forgive you" said naomi while opening her magz and read it again

"wait, you're not mad?" asked michael

"nope. the fact that you kissed her doesn't make me mad. i know her" she said "it was an accident"

they both silenced.naomi was trying to believe that it was an accident.still trying.and after that,they acted like everything was okay.acted.

"wait, vod.look at this" said darrent while handing his phone to him

"what is it?" asked evodie while looking at the phone in confussion "oh a map of cijantung.what's with it?"

"see right here" said darrent while pointing at something on his phone

"an animal shelter?you wanna adopt a dog or something?OH OH adopt a kitten. i love kittens" said evodie with an unyu tone

"arrgghh no dumbass.beside that.here" said darrent again

"oohh MAR" said evodie

darrent looked at him with a face like he was waiting evodie to say something

"OOHH it's where tasya goes" said evodie again.he got it.finally

"bingo" said darrent "it's near the museum that we're gonna visit"

"so?"

"so.i'm gonna go get ma gurl" said darrent with a ghetto tone

"right on" said evodie highfiving him

after a few hours trip, they arrived.they went to their hotel first to put their stuff there.all of the juniors were there.the madesu club got seperated.

room 103 : venna, naomi, thalia, chacha
room 104 : fransis, evodie, darrent, michael
room 105 : jessica, icha, yasmine, *some random red head*
room 106 : albert, jodi, alfons, eka

they rested for awhile.that trip was a bit exhausting.when the others decided to take a nap, eka and edwin decided to take a walk in the park near the hotel.a nice walk could refresh them with all the stuff that has been going on.it was nice.

"i'm sorry" said edwin

"for what?" asked eka confusedly

"the football team... they're mean to you"

eka stopped and looked at him "how many times do i have to tell you that it's not your fault?"

"it's just that.... i don't know"

"don't worry. i can take care of myself" said eka with a shrug of his left shoulder

edwin smiled "i know. i like how brave you are"

"thank you"

"can i ask you something?"

"anything" said eka

"um... i know that this is weird.but i have this little crush on this guy and.... "

"yes?" said eka excitedly

"i want you to tell me how to know if he's... ya know" said edwin. he was shy. mad shy

"oh" said eka disappointedly. he thought maybe this little crush that edwin was talking about was.... well, him. but edwin didn't seem to notice the change in eka's face "easy" said eka again

"well.... how?"

"just ask him what team does he play in" he said

"are you crazy?" asked edwin with disbelief tone

"no. it's simple"

"but... "

"you think he'll avoid you when he knows that you're gay?" said eka "well let me tell you something. i don't like it. people talk and treat gay people like they're some sort of freaks and weirdos. i don't like that. do you think straight people aren't freaks? well, you're wrong. gay people are normal. they don't even supposed to be called gay. they are people. they are people too. people these days are unbelieveable. and so are you. you're gay and you keep hiding in your closet. to be honest, i don't like that at all. it's like you're trying to be something that's not you. and you also think that gay people aren't people. you think that we're an outsiders and outcasts" said eka

it silenced edwin in an instant "whoa"

"oh i'm sorry" said eka again "i just... i just wish people would learn about acceptance more" with that, he went away, leaving edwin alone in the park.

at the evening, the juniors went to a museum.they could see.... museum stuff? yeah. museum stuff. some historical shit with descriptions all over the place. the madesu club decided to go together as a group, since they were so comfortable with each other.

"how's your sweet sweet pianist?" asked evodie

"it's getting somewhere. i think" said yasmine. they were walking together "and how's your hot hot cheerleader?"

"i have plans" said evodie with a smirk

"i have plans too" said yasmine. not wanting to lose

"well then i have better plans" he said

"i have the best plans" she said

"arrgghh why do i always lose in this thiiiinggg" said evodie

"because i'm yasmine. yasmine parawina larasati" she said arrogantly

"and i'm abraham evodie mancana?" he said confusedly

they laughed. but suddenly venna took evodie's arm and dragged him somewhere without even talk to yasmine. oh well.

"hey slow down girl" said evodie. they stopped in a quiet part of the museum where there were no people

"i want to ask you something" said venna

"what is it?'

"i overheard your conversation with yasmine. so what plans do you got?" asked venna

evodie dropped his jaw. she dragged him just for this. they could talk about this anytime. but she insisted to talk about it now. whoa. "calm down" he said

"what are the plans.for serious" begged venna

evodie put a finger on his chin "hmmm i have one in mind"

"what is it what is it?" asked venna enthusiastically

"fransis and chacha aren't the 'so easy to get jealous' type. they will hold their jealousy until something too far happens"

"like what?" asked venna while cocking an eyebrow

"oh you'll see"

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"get over her, will you" said aji. he smacked the back of albert's head. albert was kind of looking at jessica. all the time.

both aji and albert were sitting on a bench inside the museum "ouch that hurts, curly" 

"at least i'm not looking at another guy's girl all the time" said aji

"hey, it's not my fault that i fell for her" said albert while still rubbing the back of his head

"mate, look at her" said aji. albert looked at jessica "now look at you" said aji while pointing at a mirror. how convenient that there was a mirror there

"so, what does that mean?" asked albert

"you have a future" said aji "and it's not her. you know it" 

"what? are you saying that we can't be together?" 

"no. i'm saying that life is much more bigger than just her" he said

"and?" 

"she's not everything, mate. so you fancy her, big deal. women, they will come and go. and there are so many of them in this world" said aji

"i don't get it" 

"what i'm saying is, life is big. it's really big. it's bigger than love. love is not everything" said aji "maybe at our ages we will think that love is everything, but the truth is, it's not. life is everything. and it's way bigger than love. think about life, forget about love. yes, we need love. but it'll come to us eventually. and for now, we have to think about what we can do in our lives. put love aside and you'll figure out the secret of life"

albert sighed "maybe you're right. but i just can't" he said "she is everything"

"argh. when will you come to a realization that life is much more bigger than her?" said aji. he was pretty annoyed with albert's attitude

albert sighed again. he took one deep breath "i don't know. to me, life is her. i love her and that's all i know. life couldn't be bigger than her because she is life. i haven't came to a realization that life is bigger than her. and maybe i will never come to that realization. because i love her that much. i want her that much. she's the only thing that matters in my world" said albert while looking at jessica who was laughing at what jodi just whispered to her

aji wanted to say something, but then he looked at albert's face. it was true. everything that albert has just said. he was in love. aji could see it clearly. maybe he had this ego of his, but albert here was his best friend. he won't stand for his ego than his best friend. he smiled "then go get her, mate. show her that you're better than that wheelchair kid" 

albert turned his head to him and smiled. he turned his head to jessica again and looked at her. because.... just.... look at her. just look at her.

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darrent sneaked past the teachers easyly. he walked to a school. MAR, if it wasn't that obvious. he was nervous. of course. he wanted to say some things to tasya. he was sure that she was worth it. this girl. he went inside the school without any permission. he heard singing. he followed that voice and found some sort of auditorium. he went inside and looked at the stage. there was a blonde. his blonde. tasya. she was playing the guitar. alone on the stage. the song started. it was familiar to him. he sat on one of the audience chair, just to see her singing and hear her voice.

A second, a minute, an hour, a day goes by
I'm hopin' just to be by your side
I'm turnin' the handle, it won't open
Don't make me wait 'cause right now I need your smile


Knock, knock


she sang it so beautifully. darrent was amazed with her. like always. because she always had something that could amaze him

When life had locked me out I turned to you
So open the door
'Cause you're all I need right now, it's true
Nothin' works like you

Little louder, little louder
Little louder knockin'
Little louder, little louder


he could saw her face. oh god. that face. he missed it. he loved it. so damn much. those deep blue, it swallowed him whole.

A warm bath, a good laugh, an old song that you know by heart
I've tried it but they all leave me cold
So now I'm here waitin' to see you
My remedy for all that's been hurtin' me
 

Knock, knock

When life had locked me out I turned to you
So open the door
'Cause you're all I need right now, it's true
Nothin' works like you


darrent looked at him all the way. and was it just him, or she just swiped a tear from her face? oh, it wasn't just him.

You seem to know the way
To turn my frown upside down
You always know what to say
To make me feel like everything's okay


she smiled after this part. darrent knew this smile. this was the 'happy because of darrent' smile. she used it when she got happy because of his doing. he knew. he noticed. he just knew. he knew right that moment, he could do this. they could do this.

When life had locked me out I turned to you
So open the door
'Cause you're all I need right now, it's true
Nothin' works like you


she ended the song and swiped another tear. but this time, she was smiling. she didn't notice darrent's precense.... yet.she wanted to get off the stage when darrent stood and walked to her direction

she was surprised. as hell. was he listening? it made her blush. but she tried to hide it with turning her back to him "what do you want?" she asked

"i want to tell you a story about me and this girl i knew" said darrent. he got up the stage and looked at her back. he was a meter away from her

"go on" she said

"i met her just a few weeks ago. she was beautiful, smart, cool, and... she was blonde" he said

she giggled

then darrent continued "she was the most amazing thing i've ever seen. then i started to have feelings for her. and i think she gave me a sign. her smile was the only thing that i couldn't get enought of" he said "she could cheer my heart up. and then, i gave it to her. my heart"

"what happens next?" she asked

"she kept it. she kept my heart. she's still keeping it now. and i don't know when will she return my heart to me" said darrent "but then again, i don't want her to return my heart to me. i want her to keep it. i want her to keep it forever. it's all hers. and i'm hoping that.... "

"yes?"

"i'm hoping that i can keep her heart, someday" he said "and now i'm here. trying to make things right. because ever since she went away from me, i don't know how to feel. because she makes me feel.... she makes me feel like everything is possible"

tasya turned her face to him and took one step closer "and who is this girl that you're talking about?" she asked

darrent took a step closer too. he grabbed her waist and she wrapped her arms around his neck "i think you know who she is" he said with a smile

she smiled and put her forehead against his "what i know is, she loved you too. and she just gave you her heart for you to keep" said tasya

forever.proudly so.

the two of them walked around MAR after that. it felt so damn good. to get back together and talk about things together again. they talked about everything.

"so, i guess i'll be going" said darrent. it was already so late

"i guess" said tasya

"see you at sectionals" he said and then walked away.

she smiled. the 'happy because of darrent' smile. and he walked away with a smile too. a 'happy because of tasya' smile.

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"daddy?" she said between her tears

"yes, darling?" he hold her tighter. trying not to cry. trying so hard to comfort her and tell her that everything was going to be okay. but he couldn't. he just couldn't. because he knew that everything wasn't okay.

anya sniffed and put her head on dami's shoulder "i miss her" 

"i know. me too" said dami "me too" 

"do you ever feel like she's here?" she asked. she looked at the kitchen. just for awhile she thought she saw a shadow that shaped like a woman

"you mean... her spirit?" asked dami

"yes" said anya "i don't know why, but i feel like she's watching us. here. now"

"maybe she is" said her father

"i just... her precense like this is killing me. and i don't know how to end it"

"me neither sweetheart" said dami brushing her hair

"daddy?"


"yes?"


"everything is not okay, is it?"


he looked at her and sighed "i'm sorry"


"it's alright" she sniffed "i'd rather hearing that than lies about how things will be okay" she looked at the kitchen again.

the shadow vanished pieces by pieces.

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the madesu club was hanging in the private lounge just for the juniors. there were some juniors beside madesu club who were hanging too. fransis and chacha was sitting together. cuddling. yet their minds were somewhere else. evodie and venna were sitting on a couch. they were like giggling and whispering stuff at each other.

 "you ready?" asked evodie to venna

"i hope so" she said nervously

"okay, here goes" 

then they kissed. this time, it wasn't an accident. but it wasn't real too. ah, so this was evodie's plan. fake kissing in front of everyone. so thoughtful. but then again, not really. because fransis and chacha could see them clearly. well, that was actually the point of doing this. at first, fransis acted like he didn't see that. but after a few seconds, his face became red. he walked towards evodie and venna. he seperated them with his hands and took evodie's collar

"what the hell is going on man?" asked fransis..... shoutfully (?)

"what's with you?" asked evodie 

"oh so this is how it's gonna be?" said fransis 

everyone seemed so distracted by the two. but they all just watched

"hey this is a free country" shouted evodie

"well than i can do this!" said fransis. he punched evodie right on his cheek 

evodie twisted and fell on the couch. chacha stood up and held fransis "stop this!" 
evodie's cheek was a little red. and not because he was blushing. no way. he got angry, stood up, and tried to hit fransis. but darrent and venna held him from doing that.

"you stole the girl i love, you freaking bastard!" shouted evodie uncontrollably

"yeah? you made out with the girl i love, shithead!" said fransis. albert helped chacha 

venna and chacha snapped. what did they just say?

"shut up!" 

"you started it!" 

"you're not my friend! you're the most pathetic person i know and i should've known that this will happen. i thought we were real, sis!" shouted evodie. fransis slowed his movement. so did evodie. then he said again "i thought we were real" slowly

"i.... " fransis wanted to say something. but it didn't come out

"stop this shit!" shouted chacha "you guys. just stop" she said "i hate this. i don't know what it is, but i hate it so bad. what are we doing for god's sake?" 

"we're trying to feel. i am trying to feel" said evodie

"no you're not. stop that crap about 'she's the girl i love and i will love her always'. stop it. this is life. we fall in love, we fall out love, and we get our hearts broken. it's life. get over it" said chacha to evodie. then she turned to fransis "and you. you've had me once. then you met her" she said while pointing to venna and looked at him again "you blew it. you broke my heart and you gave yours to her. but when she threw it away, you went back to me. who the hell do you think you are?"

they all silenced. the music stopped and chacha said "i'm just tired, okay" she was almost burst into tears "i can't handle all of this. i can't stand it. you guys are stupid fartfaces" she couldn't stand. her knees felt like jellies and she fell to the ground. weeping.

naomi calmed her down and comforted her. well at least trying to. she hugged her

after chacha calmed down a little, she whispered "thanks" 

"hey" she said while looking at her "that's what friends are for"

it was so awkward in the lounge room. fransis and evodie looked down. then fransis went out. evodie sat on the couch. alone.

"um, okay" said yasmine to everyone awkwardly "i'm gonna sing since this is so weird" 

there was a little stage. she stood on it and said "i dedicate this song to someone special. i dare him to let me be his one and only" alfons snapped from his shockness and looked at yasmine on the stage. beautiful as ever. started playing the piano. wait? she could play piano?

You've been on my mind
I grow fonder every day
Lose myself in time
Just thinking of your face

God only knows
Why it's taken me so long
To let my doubts go
You're the only one that I want

yasmine sang it so beautifully. it distracted everyone in the room. so did alfons. especially alfons.
 
I don't know why I'm scared
I've been here before
Every feeling, every word
I've imagined it all

You'll never know, if you never try
To forgive your past, and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be, your
Your one and only
Promise I'm worth it
To hold in your arms

So come on
And give me a chance
To prove I am the one who can
Walk that mile

Until the end starts

albert was looking at jodi and jessica who were cuddling like they were a freaking happy couple. freaking happy couple.
 
If I've been on your mind
You hang on every word I say
Lose yourself in time
At the mention of my name

Will I ever know
How it feels to hold you close
And have you tell me
Whichever road I choose you'll go

evodie saw chacha who was still trying to stop her tears. my oh my he loved her so much. he just knew it. but what oh what he could do to melt her heart just like he has done the last time?
 
I don't know why I'm scared
Cos I've been here before
Every feeling every word
I've imagined it all

You'll never know
If you never try
To forgive your past
And simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your
Your one and only
I promise I'm worth it
To hold in your arms

So come on
And give me a chance
To prove I am the one who can
Walk that mile

Until the end starts

I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart

yasmine was locking her brown eyes to alfons. and all of a sudden, nothing else mattered
 
I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart (nobody's perfect)
I know it ain't easy (trust me I've learned it)
Giving up your heart (nobody's perfect)
I know it ain't easy (trust me I've learned it)
Giving up your heart (nobody's perfect)
I know it ain't easy (trust me I've learned it)
Giving up your heart (nobody's perfect)
I know it ain't easy (trust me I've learned it)
Giving up your heart

So I dare you to let me be your
Your one and only
I promise I'm worth it
To hold in your arms

So come on
And give me the chance
To prove I am the one who can
Walk that mile

Until the end starts

Come on
And give me a chance
To prove I am the one who can
Walk that mile

Until the end starts

she smiled and recieved so many applauses. she walked to alfons

"so, have you think about it?" asked yasmine

"about what?" asked alfons back

"my challange" 

he smiled "i have"

"and...."

"and i decided to win" he said. she smiled so wide until her cheeks hurt. then she hugged him. he hugged her back.
 
it was a little late. so they decided to go back to their rooms. but not michael. he sat on the carpet. in the halls in front of his room. he didn't know why. he was just so shocked and everything. suddenly, the door of room 103 opened. he stood up instictly.

"oh" he said while looking at chacha. she closed the door 

"hi michael" said chacha

"so... what are you doing? everybody is asleep?" he asked

"yes" she said while taking a step closer

"look, cha. i need to know something" said michael

"what is it?" 

"what are you doing?" 

"standing"

"no. seriously. what are you trying to do?" asked michael. he seemed to know something. something that chacha didn't tell him. it was a guess. but he needed to confirm it.

"nothing" she was standing right in front of him now

"you're up to something cha. i just know it" he said

"you will see" said chacha before kissing him

she kissed him again.

fucking again.

what the hell was going on?

he pushed her from him. but it was too late. naomi was already standing in front of room 103. looking at the two of them.

"naomi, it's not what you think it i-" 
 
but before michael could finish his sentence, naomi said "cha, can you leave us alone? go inside"

chacha went to her room awkwardly. then the door shut. it was only them in the hall. michael and naomi. standing with 1 meter distance between them.

"explain" she said

"it was an accident! she kissed me! she kissed me, mi" said michael

"that's the best you got?" asked naomi

it silenced michael. and she continued "we're done" and she turned around. about to enter her room again

but michael held her wrist "wait, naomi" 

naomi pulled her hand from his holding. she turned to him and he was surprised to see her crying "you know. you know that you're the only one that i've ever love" she cried

he couldn't do anything. he felt so heartbroken. he wanted to scream to the world that he loved her. so much. he wanted to shout out loud. but he chose to stood there like an idiot

"you know that you're my one and only" she said again between her tears "but why can't i be your one and only?"

"you are!" he said. he couldn't. he couldn't stand her crying. he just couldn't. her never saw her like this before. ever. it broke his heart to know that those tears were because of him

"liar" she said "go away. i don't want to see your face. i don't want to hear your voice. i don't want you" 

"you know that it's not true" 

"yes. i know that i'm telling you lies" said naomi "i know that i could never stop wanting you. but at least if i lie, i won't get hurt by you. because even if you hurt me, i can't hate you. i can never stop loving you. and that's what i'm afraid of. that's the problem. it scares the shit out of me, mike. it has scared me from the day i fell for you. i don't want to do this. not anymore" she cried

michael looked like he was about to say something. but nothing came out. absolutely nothing. naomi went inside her room while crying.

michael stood in front of her door, turned around and leaned his back on the door. he sled down until he sat. he felt bad. he felt horrible. 

AHOY END OF THE CHAPTER! okay from the top guys.i don't really think this chapter is nice. it's kind of boring and short. BUT ANGST. SO MANY ANGST. i love angst. i love eka! i know. the ajibert lol love it so much. aji is a pretty nice english friend. THE TADA OMG HAHAH LOVE EM MY GAAWWWDD. the anya was so short and spooky. and the angst in the lounge room omg. chacha was like so cool and all. BUT SHE KISSED MICHAEL AGAIN. WHAT THE HELL? lol i know why. i'll tell you in chapter 19. THE MIMI OMG ANGST EVERYWHERE ADJHDJKAAJDHQ LOVE IT SO MUCH. oh and i tried to soften my language, but i just couldn't stop myself from adding 'fucking again' because it's just so askfhiauiofh idk sorry.

the songs are one and only - adele and knock knock - lenka. i'm so into adele guys. seriously she's awesome. you guys should like, buy her album or something because.... just because!

next chapter will be Madesu:Sectionals!

Selasa, 19 Juli 2011

kok gue ngakak ya liat foto ini

aksfhlkasghlsdkghlkashkhakh #venna is like 'i'm gonna lick you hard' naomi is like 'ugh i have to fart so bad' raras is like 'oh wow this is fun my foot iches' i'm like 'bitches love me' luisa is like 'i'm gonna kill you in your sleep' tasya is like 'hmm yeah ma face is awesome hmm' christy is like 'when i smileee the whole world stops and puke at the trashcan like someone in the flag ceremony todaaaayyy' anya is like 'kiss my ass lol you can't see me imma ninja bitches' dita in the back is like "OH MY GOD, FOOOOOODD" and ms rini idk maybe she's drunk

the way christina grimmie says "bye" at the end of her videos

Minggu, 17 Juli 2011

the sinners are much more fun

i can already see how my life is going to be when glee with the original cast ends

 "wake up.you have school today"

"glee took place in mckinley high.a school" 

"hey let's eat in the restaurant tonight"

"they used to eat at a restaurant too.breadstix"

"hey wanna hang out?"

"sure.when?" 

"this tuesday night"

"sorry,i can't.i have to watch.... oh wait...."

"okay class.today's assignment is singing"

"they used to sing"
"yessica,it's your turn to sing"

"and the songbirds *sniff sniff* are singing like *sniff sniff* they know the score"
"................"

"and i *sniff sniff* love you i love *sniff sniff* you i love you"

"................"

"LIKE NEVER BEFOORREEEE"

"hey look carlos santana is on tv"

"santana"

"how's that madesu fic of yours?"

"that fic was inspired by glee"

"can you please move on with your life?"

"okay *sob sob* i'll try"
i just can't.......... it'll suck much.

Sabtu, 16 Juli 2011

nyo

hai hai.tiba2 entah kenapa gue pengen cerita tentang kemaren kemaren hari kamis.jadi gue jalan berempat doang bareng naomi fransis michael.bukan jalan bahkan.cuma ga jelas gitu di rumah.ok,dari awal.

kan janjian jam 11,mo ke rumah darrent ceritanya.surprise surprise an gitu deh.gue pagi2 online dulu.kerterusan sampe jam stengah 11 dan gue langsung cepet2 bersiap soalnya takut telat.gue ga ada hp ato apakek pula.jadi susah.berangkat hore.gue nyampe jam 11 lewat beberapa menit lah.trus gue pikir pasti udah pada nungguin di depan gereja.kenyataannya,

depan gereja lagi di cat sama mas2.

sedih.trus gue cek ruang tunggu,cuma ada michael HAHA sumpah kayaknya michael apa2 dateng selalu paling awal.gak sekolah gak jalan.anak yang antusias.waaa udah lama ga liat sekolah.kangen.tapi sayang lagi ada penebangan pohon bambu jadi ga memberikan kesan 'udah lama ga ke sekolah keren ini'.trus gue juga ga bisa jalan2 di lorongnya sambil pura2 mengenang kejadian berkesan yang pernah terjadi di sekolah.ya gara2 ada bambu di jalan.ga keren banget kalo gue lagi jalan sambil liat2 dengan dramatis trus tiba2 kesandung,jatoh,ketimpa bambu,nyangkut selamanya.selain itu,tempat duduknya juga pada berdebu HAHA abal banget sekolah.ditinggal sebulan langsung kayak mesir.

ya pokoknya kita nungguin sisanya yang lain.sayang chacha ga ikutan.kangen loh HEHEH.anyways bagaimanapun, gue sama michael terdampar.ga ada hp,belom pada dateng,ga bisa ngapa2in.yaudah kita cuma nunggu

..................................

dan nunggu

...................................

dan nunggu

................................

naomi dateng jam 12.padahal tadi pagi dia bilang "lo datengnya pagi ya".dasar penghianat.ok tinggal 1 orang lagi.kita cuma duduk di ruang tunggu sambil ngomong2 ga jelas gitu deh.trus pelatih basket pada dateng.

kenapa kalian baru dateng sekarang?dimana kalian dulu saat kami membutuhkan kalian? 

gue "haha baru pada dateng sekarang" siapagataulupa "ngapain ya mereka?" "paling mo dipecat" HAHA jahat ya.enggaklah.gatau deng.tiba2 ada kucing buang hajat di deket gerbang HAHA udah gitu ditonton kita kayak
dan kucingnya kayak
HAHA ga deng.kucing ya kucing.trus gue kayak "eh coba lo dorong gerbangnya deh mi".bayangin kalo itu terjadi.kucing yang lagi menikmati kebebasan hidup,digangguin.ya jangan deh.ntar takut belepotan juga HAHA.

dan setelah menunggu agak lama,fransis dateng juga.naik mobil bareng nyokapnya.jam berapa?jam setengah satu.
kita langsung masuk dan menuju ke rumah darrent.akhirnya.sampe di depan gg bali properti darrent.kita diturunin berempat trus langsung jalan.pas rumah darrent udah di depan mata,kita kayak
kita berdiri ga jelas di depan gerbang.di depan pintu masuk ada mbak2 gatau lagi ngapain.kita nanya "darrentnya ada ga?" mbak2 "ga ada".udah.se sederhana itu jawabannya.opa darrent keluar dan bilang "darrent di citra udah dari kemaren".gue mikirnya rumah cantik citra HAHA cie darrent.udah sono spa sama bu ruli aja.jahat meninggalkan kita.kita jalan ga jelas sambil frustasi soalnya darrent ga bilang2 kalo dia lagi pergi.
"oi gimana nih jadinya?" "gatau ga jelas nih" michael "gue bawa dvd glee" HAHAHA YEAY.kok michael bisa punya dan gue ngga.......... "yaudah ayo nonton di rumah lo aja sis" "ok deh".akhirnya kita naik angkot trus jalan kaki sampe rumah fransis.

nyampe di sana kita langsung masuk dan ngeliatin scoopy bareng2.ke kamar,tidur2an,beli nutri sari.nonton film cina ga jelas tentang orang2 main poker HAHA asik sekali aktifitas ini.trus dateng adeknya fransis.sumpah dari dulu gue ga pernah tau namanya anak itu siapa.entah bian, dian, betty, bien, ato tanto, joni ato apa gue ga pernah tau.

eh ada gitar.ambil,genjreng2.
lanjut kita nonton glee di laptop sambil kedinginan.ngakak masa nonton season 2 dari awal.padahal gue pengen nonton yang season 1.gara2 bosen,kita percepat2 sampe bagian nyanyi2 kalo ga adegan yang seru.ada lagi tangan2 yang mencet mencet space bar sama enter jadi filmnya ke pause, jalan, keulang ulang lagi, pause, keulang HAHA jadi lucu gitu.trus selama nonton gue kayak nyanyi2 dan ngikutin dialognya

naomi udah kayak bosen ngantuk
fransis sama michael ga bisa diem lompat2 di kasur nempel di tembok selama nonton bagian party episode blame it on the alcohol
gue sama naomi ngeliatin mereka kayak
yah,tapi kalo dipikir pikir,biasa,anak cowok
trus bosen deh.kita minum nutri sari dulu.enaknya.habis itu kita buru2 masuk ke kamar dan tutup dengan cepat biar si adek fransis ga masuk HAHA jahat banget masa sampe ditaro kursi di pintunya biar dia ga bisa buka.setelah nonton lagi,makanan sudah siap.kita makan nasi goreng,hore.

di kamar kita pasrah lagi.karena bosen,kita akhirnya nonton skins.

..............................aneh ya kalo nonton bareng2.ya,aneh sekali.
lampunya dimatiin pula.pada main perang bantal abal kacamata michael ilang ditelan gelap HAHA.

oi ga kerasa abis ternyata udah jam setengah 6.nah dari situ kita duduk2 berdiri2 di kasur dan ngobrol2 tentang segala hal.tiba2 malah ngomongin fic madesu.

fransis "eh gue sama siapa di madesu?" gue "chacha" michael "kalo gue?" gue "lo masih sama naomi" michael "yah elah jangan dong.putusin aja" naomi "iya ntar ceritanya michael selingkuh sama thalia aja" michael "ih" fransis "ceritanya ntar michael lagi makan nasi padang aja,trus thalia nge maling nasi padangnya gitu.jadi sebenernya thalia itu dulu cowok namanya tarno,tapi dikutuk sama michael jadi cewek gara2 mencuri nasi padang" HAHAHH imajinasi anak ini.

naomi "eh kapan pulang nih?gue takut dimarahin sama bokap.tadi gue jujur banget bilangnya mau ke rumah darrent" gue "yah,naomi.harusnya lo bilang ke rumah anak cewek" fransis "iya,harusnya lo bilang mo ke rumah derin" HAHAH naomi "ah iya nih payah" gue "harusnya lo bilang mau ke rumah darrenonina" HAHAHH darrenonina.bagus ya.

pokoknya kita ngobrol ketawa2 gatau deh tentang apaan lagi lupa.trus tiba2 kan udah jam 6 kurang,malah ngomongin serem2.ini semua gara2 naomi.dia nanya "eh ntar pulangnya ga lewat jalan pocong itu kan?" langsung fransis "eh ada cerita nih,blah blah orang jalan blah serem tapi dia ga ngerasa kalo dia lagi jalan di tempat serem nakutin blah jadi dia ga nyampe2 rumahnya blah nyeremin blah serem" michael "gue sama bule dan kawan kawan pernah liat di lantai 3 mcd blahblah serem kan ada 2 macem blahblah serem yang nggangguin,sama yang engga blah blah nakutin" 

gue udah ketakutan histeris 
kenapa kita harus membahas topik ini?ada suara maghrib trus kita semua langsung pada diem saling berpandang pandangan HAHA alay.udah gitu ada bonekanya fransis yang serem menghantui kita semua.pas selesai,kita langsung "pulang yok pulang" takut gelap

padahal gue kalo udah gitu maunya nginep aja.males pulang dan takut pulang HAHA.soalnya rumah gue kan kosong.coba pada boleh,udah pada gue ajakin ke rumah gue buat nemenin.kan kasur gue gede dan menyeramkan gue tidur sendiri.

udah sekian perjalanan kita.gue nyampe jam 8 malem wew.dadaaaahhh xoxo

It'll soon be here, It'll be better than before

If you wake up and don't wanna smile
If it takes just little while
Open your eyes and look at the day
You'll see things in a different way

Why not think about times to come
And not about how the things that you've done
If your life was bad to you
Just think what tomorrow will do

Yesterday's gone

All i want is to see you smile
If it takes just a little while
I know you don't believe that it's true
I never meant any harm to you

Don't stop thinking about tomorrow 

random night is random.will mostly be about glee stuff tho idk lol i love em too much

k so this made me laugh
 
"i'm a troll" - Naya Rivera to KevinMcTroll

she knows what we're doing.she knows what's going on in our place.she knows about all the fandom omg troll the naya the brittana and the heya omg.she knows that she's a huge troll there.she knows everything.she knows.and i just can't imagine it omg she saw everything and like,and now she knows and everything became so awkward and yeah she's kind of  troll.but omg i don't know what i'm feeling here.is it really normal to feel awkward after our biggest troll knows that she's a troll lol i love her so much.what am i feeling.i need to air.omg seriously i feel kind of weird right now,it's like my feeling is doing these things to me that made me omg idk naya rivera is a troll.i can't stop mumbling omg this feeling is like so unusual and naya knows.she knows what we do to her in the internet lol you troll.awkward now that she knows.naya is a troll.

Kevin said that the drunk Glee characters in BIOTA were loosely based on how the actors are in real life when they are drunk. Except for Naya, he said that he'd "never seen Naya cry."

k so heather can be drunk forever i guess.anyone's got a problem?
oh look look look at that guys look look oh guys look at that heather strips she strips guys look look she strips just like brittany guys look.now stop droolling and start scrolling down again.

okay,first watch this vid first and then let's just worship kevin mctroll for being so adorable.oh wait,listen to what he said near the end

“When we were on tour they were asking some of these young girls, 11 12 year old girls outside the arena who they wanted to see together in third season, they were like Brittany and Santana!”

lol 11 12 year old girls.brittana turns kids into lesbians.see naya and heather are trolls.but still,they love brittana.i'm so proud of you kids.let's ship them together forever and ever and eternity and let's be crazy old grandmothers together and let's share coffins when we die after brittana adopt a baby and live happily ever after.
we all have gifs alasia.lol this gif.

Heather didn't know Naya was going to go up and kiss her on stage. Naya felt bad because Chris was going to get a kiss, while Heather was always rejected by Darren. 

is that so?then, THANK YOU NAYA THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU
it's just that this event did many things to me

Kevin said that there was meant to be an additional 5 minutes of the party scene in BIOTA 

heather and naya also had more scenes where they were doing body shots off each other but they were cut
dear whoever cut those scenes,
life freaking sucks.

so,k omg what even.... i just.... i just can't. this picture. i just can't. I JUST FUCKING CAN'T OKAY. DON'T YOU DARE TRY TO CALM ME.

My mom asked me what I wanted for dinner and I said nothing

but as I turned around… I whispered…“everything.

this.

i don't know what this means.awkwardly complimenting and looking at each other.guys,you're on an interview. #lookhowheatherleanedforwardandbentjusttocomplimentnayawiththemicsoitwouldbeoutloud

everyone is so excited about harry potter 7 part 2 and how the cast acted when they were last filming and all.oh yeah they cried.i mean,like seriously sobbing and everything.look how far they've come.me?oh not so much.i just love rupert grint and emma watson.romonie for life.and is it just me or neville longbottom (lol i dunno who's the cast) is kind of hot.I MEAN COME ON
how the actual fuck did this happen?i can't words.

my god quick is flawless

omg askhdfjsf she's so unreal.i mean,like what if i'm standing next to her omg i'll be like.... a tree or something. oh wait.... trees are tall.my bad. then okay i'll be like.... i dunno,a piece of worn out poo (omg lol worn out poo what does that supposed to mean). the point is, she's pretty. (lol so that's it? no perfect? no flawless? no weird words that i used to use?). if you say so. AKDJGSUFGHJAKDA DIANNA WHY YOU SO PERFECT AND FLAWLESS AND AWESOME AND EVERYTHING BUT YOU CAN STILL BE HUMAN OMG ADJKHJADH WHAT SPECIES ARE YOU (obviously not mine lol) AND I JUST CAN'T STOP LOOKING AT YOUR FACE BECAUSE IT'S JUST SO SHINY AND BRIGHT AND IDK STAR-ISH? IT'S JUST SO UNHUMAN AND AWESOME AND AWESOME AND EVERYTHING AND HOW YOUR EYES SPARKLES AND COLOURED MY LIFE (um.... what?) AND YOUR SWEET VOICE THAT I JUST FREAKING LOVE ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU SANG THAT SONG I DON'T WANNA KNOW WITH FINN OR WHEN YOU SANG I FEEL PRETTY UNPRETTY WITH RACHEL YOU'RE PERFECT BB

omg why am i laughing so hard on this



what?she's kind of pretty okay.i literally played skyscraper in repeat for two hours now.

so k i'm done.i miss glee.and i'm so so looking forward for s3.it's just,omg idk.the cast have no idea what they will go through and they don't know the storyline.i mean,kevin said that they used to know the storyline a day before the shoot.uughh naya is such a good actor srsly.nightbye