i'm starting to feel that he's right.i'm starting to feel like i'm being used by her.and i'm starting to feel like she's just a great liar.

i'm so fucking sorry.for all the memories that we should've gone through together.for all the shit that i've been saying behind your back.for falling so easy on her.for all the swearing.for all my tears that i've spent for her that i should've spent for you.for all the secrets that i've been hiding.for denying you.for trying to avoid you.for not being there for you.for seeing you as the bad guy.for all the time that we should've had.for all the love that i'm not willing to give to you.for all my laughs that i didn't share with you.for not letting you to love me.

and most of all,for hating you.

i'm so freaking sorry.i'm not expecting you to forgive me because i know how you feel.i know how it feels to be betrayed.i know how it feels to love someone that doesn't give a fuck about you.i just want you to know that i'm sorry.and i understand now.i understand why you can't forgive her for what she has done.because it's just so fucking disgusting.i feel it too because she's a part of my life just like she's a part of yours.and everytime i see her face,i remember the thing that she did that ruined this whole thing.just like you said.and it's killing me so badly.to imagine that.i know how hard it is for you.

i'm sorry.i'm sorry for not being able to do anything when you're hurting this bad.but you must know,all the tears that spend everynight now is for you.and i'm willing to give you the rest of my love.because i do love you.

all these years were just misunderstanding.i misunderstood a few things.i'm sorry.i'm sorry for being such an idiot.i should've known that this would happen.i should've.i'm just a fucking twat.

i'm sorry.

but why can't you let her go?