lalala let's dance

okay about the title... nope. nevermind. HEY. i don't have any intention at all for making this post! HA! i'm such an awesome person. i haven't done my assignment though. still an awesome person. okay so, i'm just going to write anything that's going through my mind lately. here goes nuthin'! I'M SUCH AN AWESOME PERSON.

i'm still working on madesu. yeah! can you believe that?! i'm kind of slow on this chapter cause i don't know what the hell should happen to you guys. but i added a new character. here, have some sneak peek.


"you know, if you're trying to believe something so impossible, you're going to get hurt more than if you just believe in reality" said the girl that was eyeing thalia the whole time.


thalia was shocked. she turned her head towards the girl and saw her. she couldn't saw her face because the girl was under the shadow. but her voice sounded... magical?


"who are you?" asked thalia. she was a little bit scared.


"oh. i'm just a person that you don't talk to" said the girl.


"show me your face!" said thalia. she was panicking now.


"don't be scared. i don't bite either" the girl walked slowly.


thalia could see her face now. wow. it was the first word that crossed her mind after seeing that face. it was literally perfect. her big bright purple eyes were weirdly stunning on her perfect porcelain skin. her lips were glossy soft pink. the glossy part was probably because of the lolipop that she was holding on her mouth. this girl was a student in vincentius high. thalia has seen her before, but she never took notice. she was different alright. very different. her look was freaky. but it worked. thalia knew that just then. the girl was somewhat interesting.

could you guess? no? yes? tell me all about it okay ;) this is going to be an interesting character. i love her already. her eyes are purple. PURPLE. PUR-PLE. PURH-PLEH. PUUURRRPLLEEE. P-U-R-P-E-L. i guess you already get that. (i know i did wrong at that last part. HAH! i'm not an idiot. bitches. that's not how you spell purple.. right? i knew that). okay so, this character talked about reality.

ABOUT REALITY, i'm not having a great time with it. totally. it's kind of a cockblock on anything i've ever dreamed about. like how i wanted to have a farm filled with unicorns and dolphins. or meeting up with the teletubbies and live with them like forever. yep, reality crushed it. my dreams turned into a mashed potatoes. the only difference between my dreams and mashed potatoes is, mashed potatoes are way more delicious. okay. so, the thing about reality is, it is real. so you kind of can't deny it. it's like facts. not fictions. fictions are so much more fun. deal with it. i mean, which one will you choose? a huge thick encyclopedia with.. encyclopedia stuff in it, or a huge thick harry potter novel with wand helders and a talking brown hat in it? i could already guess. fact is, reality always sucked.

i really don't have anything to do. really. this is the holiday season yet i'm dying wanting to go home. i'm not having fun whatsoever. i miss everything. well, not everything. a special... thing. a very very special thing. ah love. so, here i am, trying to find a highschool. i'm not really sure about this, but whatever. ya know. the whole "your future is important" and "we only give you the best" and "your future is what important to us" and everything. it almost felt like i'm doing something out of force and pressure. every crap has gotten crappier. everything i say is unimportant. yet my future is? so, yeah. what is my future anyways? no one could tell but me, right? but oh wow i'm not supposed to talk. okay then i say nothing. then my future would be nothing. when will people understand that my future is my saying? it's kind of unfair. but remember. fair isn't a word in anyone's vocabularies anymore. sad.

okay, so i was checking this thing out, and then i fainted. why? because of how perfect it is. oh i won't tell. it's a secret. YEAH I HAVE ONE, PROBLEM? aaahh i'm in love. YEAH I CAN BE IN LOVE, PROBLEM?

ehm. so i'm going to talk about my lasts. it's something that i came up with and even though it has been done before, i feel like doing it.

last activity. peeing. oh my god it was perfect because i almost spill it. so i was taking my aunt and her boyfriend (i guess. please don't make this complicated) to a bus thingy so both of them could go back to jakarta. but then my bladder was so freaking low i could feel it burning inside me. the moment i wanted to go to the toilet at the nearest mcd, my big pops told all of us that he wanted to take us to somewhere that has food in it. somewhere on the street. so i held my pee oh my god cruciating as hell. i didn't eat and absolutely didn't drink anything. i just sat there. on the street. YEAH IMMA GHETTO. and then we got back to the bus thingy because it was time for my aunt to go and then i went to that mcd again just to pee! HAH it felt so heavenly good. god, thank you for creating a way for us to pee. amen. one thing that i found very interesting is that mcd in tegal (YEAH THAT'S THE NAME OF THE TOWN. BITCHES) is so much more modern than ones in jakarta. SCORE.

last meal. meandoan lol i don't know what else to call it. straight up mendoan. it reminds me of a visit at astari's house with naomi. so we went to astari's house until late at night and we ate probably the most delicious mendoan ever. EVER. well, maybe after the ones in gonz. EVER.

last drink. uhh tea, i guess. AND I USED A SMALL CUP AND IT WAS SO ADORABLE OH MY GOD THE CUTEST CUP EVER IN MY LIFE I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD DRINK FROM A SMALL CUTIE CHUBBY CUP EVER.

last hug. MYSELF. YEAH I CAN HUG MYSELF DEAL WITH IT.

last kiss. my fuckin adorable brother. no, not the big one ew. the smallest. oh did i tell you that my mother is now officially insane? everytime she sees my little brother she'd be like "he's the most perfect baby ever" and i was like "wha-" and she was all "ever." and it creeps the shit out of me. really.

last ride. ON A TRUCK. HELL YEAH.

last movie. wrong turn 4. oh my god this movie. you should just like watch it or something. i don't know what to call it. awesome or creepy or ew. let's watch it! i screamed a lot! yeay!

last song. simple plan- i can wait forever. YEAH I MISS SOMEONE, PROBLEM?

I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE LAST LOL OKAY SO BYE I GUESS.

oh and i hate judgemental people. stop underestimating others! you're a shitty person. i just wanted you to know that, okay ;)

STOP TOTURING ME I'M FRUSTRATED. yeah i'm mental.