This is me swallowing my pride. Which is a hard thing for me because I'm not used to swallowing my own pride. But for you, I make an exception. I'd swallow my pride for your forgiveness. In fact, I'd do anything for it. I hurt myself for hurting you. But you don't seem to know how hard it is for me too. It's like you don't appreciate what I'm trying to do. Like everything I do is never enough. I'm lost. And you're not helping.