got no reason,got no shame,got no family i can blame

she doesn't love anything anymore.she doesn't want to.she thinks loving something is just a waste of time.everything she once loved,disappointed her.everything.

she used to love her father,but then he let her down by abandoned his family

she used to love her mother,but then she left her and didn't even say goodbye or at least try to explain why

she used to love her brothers and sister,but they judge her

she used to love her friends,but then they betray her and say things behind her back.bad things.they weren't there for her.it was all fake.

so,she decided to change her life.she's on a diet called coffees and cigarettes.she spends all her day over thinking about stuff and ends up crying in her room.she acts cold.

she used to love this special person,but this person doesn't love her like she does

and she pretends that she's over this person,but deep down she knows she's still in love.and she hates herself because of it.because the fact that it's not even.at the end of the day,she uses fake smiles,fake laughs,fake joys.fake.yet everyone still fell for it.

she's lonely.

she gets bad dreams every night.she wakes up crying.crying because she realizes reality is no better than her bad dreams.

nobody can understand her.

sometimes she wish everything was just simple.she asked for it to god.no answers.she asked it again.no answers.she doesn't believe in god anymore.

she used to love god,but he never answer her questions

now she feels like her life is some kind of a mistake.but she doesn't want to over think about it again.so her escape,sleeping.sleeping.sleeping.she sleeps and wakes up everyday feeling just the same.

regrets.

she regrets everything that has happened in her life.she wants to start it all over again.every night,she closes her eyes.still awake.she wishes to wake up from all of this.she's trying to believe that this mess called her life is just a dream.

nothing.

she gets nothing.this life is a reality.it makes her cry again.until she falls asleep.puffy eyes are familiar to her.she doesn't get it.why does her tears never get to dry even though she cries all the time?

she hopes her feelings will go away soon.sooner.