"well hello there lady!" said one of the jocks when they slurpeed eka right on his face
eka was just standing there,still couldn't close his jaws.the jocks gave him the blue coloured slurpee today.and the only thing that crossed eka's mind that time was what colour will they throw at him tomorrow.eka hated himself for always thinking about it everytime he got slurpeed.because he usually got slurpeed every single day.nobody helped him.he was actually used to this.he went to the boy's bathroom and started to water some tissues.he wiped the slurpees from his face in front of the mirror.
i am gay.i accept it.this is me
he knew that the main reason why people pick on him so much was mostly because he was openly gay in this school.but no.he refused to change.he knew for god's sake that he was gay.it won't help him to just be someone else.he has chosen this.he wanted this.and he knew the consequences long before he came out.he took the risk to be someone he really was.he was freakin eka and nobody else.
after wiping those slurpees and changed with his spare clothes,he went out to his locker.his locker was next to icha's.she was there too.
"how do you do it?" said icha while looking at him
"do what?" said eka who was still taking some books from his locker
"how can you stand everyday being slurpeed?" she said
"hmm i'm pretty much use to it now" said eka with a normal tone
"you shouldn't.you don't deserve this.you're so much better than this ka"
he looked at her and tried to act normal "i am.that's why i don't fight them.they're not worth my time"
"but....."
"upup no buts,we have spanish together on first period.let's try not to be late" he said with a small smile
icha knew that smile was wrong.it was filled with fakeness and sarcasm.she really cared about eka.well duh,he was her best friend.and she knew eka was a tough kid.she thought that he must do something about this.it was getting worst and worst everyday.but eka was always refused to talk about it.she knew that he needed help.
"hey" said a person to eka in the cafeteria
"oh hey edwin.can i help you?" said eka while wiping his mouth with a napkin
"i just wanna say that i'm sorry.you know,the jocks are mean to you and i'm sorry.i'm sure they didn't mean it" said edwin while sitting down in front of eka
eka sighed "it's not your fault.well,you're a jock but you don't do those stuff to me.you don't have to feel sorry"
"well,i'm sorry anyway and i wanna make it up to you" said edwin.the next thing he did was showing eka two tickets for a broadway show in a theater near the school
"oh my god!where did you get that?" said eka almost jumping
"let's just say i have some friends" said edwin "so i'll give you these two tickets for you and a friend to watch with" he said again while handing over those tickets
"thank you so much" said eka.edwin just smiled and walk away
edwin was one of the nice football player.he wasn't a badass,he was pretty smart and obviously good looking.well,eka actually had a thing for him.but edwin was dating some chick that time.sucked for eka.
edwin were sitting with the rest of the jocks.he didn't really like it but he had a reputation to keep.eka stared at him.lost in his thoughts.
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me, just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain?t going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay
"um...hello?earth calling eka" said icha while moving her hand in front of eka's face
eka seemed surprised "oh sorry.hi"
"could you be more obvious?" said icha
"hm?what are you saying?"
"i'm saying that you shouldn't stare at someone's man that long"
"what?he's not......i'm not...." said eka confused about what he was going to say
"whatever.see you at madesu club" she said while walking away
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"guys,i did a lot of thinking.but i've decided who will sing the duet at sectionals.it's in three weeks from now" said mr veri "so,i've chosen...............no one"
"WHAT?!" said yasmine shouting
and the whole club reacted just the same as yasmine "then what are we going to do?" said fransis
"what the hell mr v?i've already practiced for my expression when i rocked a song at that stage" said naomi
"guys,guys!calm down!i think doing an audition for this duet isn't the right thing from the begining.we are not going to do a duet at sectionals" said mr veri with a high volume of voice "we'll do a solo instead"
"so what do i get to sing?" said icha with an arrogant tone
"no.i've decided to give the solo part for............naomi" said mr veri
"now you're talking.what took you so long" said naomi proudly
"wait what?are you serious?" said venna with an eyebrow lifted
"yes,guys.her voice is perfect for this song" said mr veri
madesu club ended with disappointment for a few people "hey,meet me up in the park tonight?dress up okay" said darrent to tasya.then he went away before she could ask him anything.what is he up to now?
eka went home as usual.no,he didn't live with his parents.his parents thought that having a gay child wasn't the best idea.when eka came out for the first time to his parents,they kicked him out of the house.it was a hard time for him.so he went to his aunt's house and live there until now.the fact that his parents didn't accept eka for who he was,was hurting him so bad.it made him even stonger to face the bullying and all.but he also knew that deep down,the scar was still there.a huge scar that was torturing him everyday and nobody seemed to notice.he tried to hide all of his problems so things won't get more difficult.but the walls that he has built seemed to colapse slowly day by day.
"how was you day honey?" said eka's aunt.her name was aunty woro.
"good" said eka while going upstairs
aunty woro chased eka then she said "hey.what's going on?"
"nothing aunty" said eka when he entered his room then shut the door instantly
but aunty woro knocked the door not long after that "don't you 'nothing aunty' me.tell me what's wrong"
eka opened the door and sat on his bed.aunty woro sat next to him "i just........i don't think i can face this bullying anymore"
aunty woro just stared at him for awhile then eka continued talking "do you ever feel like you're a mistake in life aunty?" the he rested his head on aunt woro's shoulder
"of course not!do not think that way.you're not a mistake"
"maybe.but.......my life is so.....urgh it's so annoying and empty"
"listen to me eka.nobody's perfect.you are who you are and you can only be you.be proud.you're the stongest person i've ever known"
"i know.but nobody seems to know that" said eka.he sighed "i just want to feel needed by someone.i just want to be a special person for someone.and now i just feel like i'm being ignored"
"no.you're not ignored.people care,ka.people do.but you haven't realize it yet.there must be someone out there that cares about you alot more than other people"
he sighed again "maybe.thanks aunty" he said before hugging her
"now,get ready for dinner" she said while getting up and went out of eka's room
her aunty was just trying to cheer him up.sadly it didn't work.suddenly his phone went off
"hi.got time?-e"
eka met up with edwin at the school.it was late night so the school was closed.but both of them knew a secret path to enter the school.they just walked in the hallway slowly.edwin started a conversation between the two of them.
"so.....thanks for coming" he said
"oh it's nothing" said eka with a smile "what do you want to do?something to talk about?"
edwin sighed "i don't know honestly.i just need someone to hang out with me"
"and you choose me because......?"
edwin laughed a little "i just got this feeling to call you"
"i feel flattered" said eka
they kept walking until they reached the choir room.they sat on the chairs
"well,actually there's something i wanted to tell you" said edwin
"okay.what is it?" said eka curiously
"things have been.......weird for me"
"like how?"
"i think..............................i might be playing on your team" said edwin while looking at the floor
eka was shocked.of course.but he tried to be as calm as possible and put on a calm face "well,what made you think that way?"
"dude,like i mean,girls don't turn me on"
"are you sure?do boys 'turn you on'?" said eka with a diffrent tone on the 'turn you on' "you have a girlfriend for god's sake"
"i know.this is frustrating.and i feel like i can only trust you on this" said edwin "argh i'm so confused"
"you have to think about this real serious.it's a huge thing.it's about your sexuality.you can't ignore this" said eka with a serious tone
"that's why i want you to help me on this"
"hmm if you don't know for sure,you have to do some test"
"like what?"
"like kissing a girl for example"
"but who?"
"what the?you have a girlfriend right?then use it" said eka
"don't you think it's a little mean?plus she's having a terrible disease now.i don't want to get inflicted"
then eka put a 'aha!' face "i know who would kiss you" said eka while smiling
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tasya was standing on a bridge in the park.she was just staring at the river below the bridge.she wore a blue dress that matched her eyes.waiting for someone.finally she saw darrent on a black suit.
"hey gorgeous" said darrent
"nice suit" she said with a smile
he took a step closer and stared at tasya "you're the most beautiful girl i've ever seen"
she answered that with a kiss on his cheek "so,is dinner served?" she said
"right this way madame" said darrent offering his arm and tasya took it
they walked to the middle of the park and found a nice table with candles,flowers,and food set on it.
"oh my god,how did you do this?" she said
"hey,it's not wrong for me to be romantic sometimes" he said with a smile
they sat there and ate dinner.it was great.they talked about many stuff.they get to know each other better.and then they finished their meal.suddenly darrent stood up and offered his hand to tasya
"may i have this dance?" he said
"there's no music" said tasya while grabbing his hand and standing up
"i've got that covered" said darrent while pulling out his ipod.both of them listened to it
She begs me to come down
Says "Boy quit foolin' around "
they started dancing and swaying through the rhythm
I told her "I love the view from up here
Warm sun and wind in my ear
We'll watch the world from above
As it turns to the rhythm of love "
We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love
My heart beats like a drum
A guitar string to the strum
A beautiful song to be sung
they stared at each other the whole song
She's got blue eyes deep like the sea
That roll back when she's laughing at me
She rises up like the tide
The moment her lips meet mine
We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love
When the moon is low
We can dance in slow motion
And all your tears will subside
All your tears will dry
Ba-ba ba-ba ba-ba baba
Da da-da dum da-da dum
Ba-ba ba-ba ba-ba ba-ba
Da da-da dum da-da dum
darrent twirled her
And long after I've gone
You'll still be humming along
And I will keep you in my mind
The way you make love so fine
We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the music low and sway to the rhythm of love
they ended the dancing there.still staring at each other "thank you" said darrent
"for what?" she asked
"for making my life worth it"
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"so,are you going to help me out?" said eka
"what is it for me?" said anya to him
"well,i'll tell everyone that you're nice and i'll set you up a date with that hot guy from night three" he said "what do you say?"
"hmm fare enough.so,where's the boy?" she said
"not now.maybe after madesu club.he got football practice today,so it'll be the perfect timing" he said
"oh okay" said anya "i never thought you'd have a crush on a football player ka.you really like him,don't you?"
"edwin is different.you'll never know" said eka with a smile and he walked away
eka just made a deal with anya.he told her that he was into edwin and he asked her to kiss edwin to make sure what team did he play on.but eka didn't tell her that edwin thought he was gay.eka didn't want everybody to know it yet.if edwin was gay,then he had to come out by himself.eka was great at keeping secrets and he also didn't want to make rumours in the school
math class was on.naomi wasn't there.well this was weird.actually nobody saw her at school today.it made chacha absolutely confused with all the schedules and also the math lessons.
"hey" whispered chacha to the person who was sitting behind her
"um....hey?" said evodie
"can you please help me on these?i mean,i tried to work on it but i ended up drawing a cat playing flute on my paper.i don't know what to do with math" she said with a stressed look
evodie just smiled "you're so adorable you know that"
chacha didn't notice it,but she was totally blushing "thanks"
then there was an awkward silence "so,about math" said evodie breaking the silence.he stood up and sat next to her since naomi wasn't there
they worked on math while laughing and joking.they missed each other.they had to admit that.then something weird happened.they were laughing with a low voice so mr iwan won't hear them.then they stopped laughing.but after that,chacha rested her head on evodie's shoulder.he didn't expect that,so did she.but it just happened.they were quiet.enjoying the silence.it's been awhile since they've touched.evodie missed her so badly.he missed her scent,her voice,her face,her touch,her everything.they stayed like that for awhile.
"i'm so confused" said chacha softly.still resting her head on his shoulder
"i'm here for you" he said while smiling at her "i promise whatever happens,i'll never leave you"
"i know.thanks.i'm so so sorry" she said while lifting her head again and looked at him
"don't be.i'm sure you've made the best decision for us.i'm sure you've thought about it well" said evodie calmly
"why do you have to be so freakin nice?you're even nicer than my nicest grandma"
"i guess you just can't hate the person you love or stop loving the person" he said with a smile
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"so,we need a song to sing together at sectionals.i've got a song for the solo,but we need one more song.any ideas guys?" said mr veri
"i have one mr v." said anya
then she went in front of the choir room "yasmine,jessica,could you help me out on this?" said anya.yasmine and jessica stood next to anya "this song is cool.it'll give us an edge"
then anya started to sing.yasmine and jessica back her up
I whip my hair back and forth (just whip it)
I whip my hair back and forth
I whip my hair back and forth (whip it real good)
I whip my hair back and forth
I whip my hair back and forth
I whip my hair back and forth
I whip my hair back and forth
mr veri couldn't help but to drop his jaw when the three girls whiped their hair
Hop up out the bed turn my swag on
Aint no sense listining to them haters cuz we whip em off
And we aint doing nothing wrong
So dont tell me nothing, i'm just tryna have fun
So keep the party jumping
So whats up (yea)
And i'll be doing what to do
We turn our back
And we walk over and just shake them off
Shake them off, shake them off,shake them off
the whole club was surprised except for chacha.she seemed to enjoy it
Don't let haters keep me off my grind
Keep my head up and I know i'll be fine
Keep fighting until I (yea)
Am down and I feel like giving up
I whip my hair back and forth
I whip my hair back and forth (just whip it)
I whip my hair back and forth
I whip my hair back and forth (whip it real good)
I whip my hair back and forth
I whip my hair back and forth (just whip it)
I whip my hair back and forth
I whip my hair back and forth (whip it real good)
I whip my hair back and forth
I whip my hair back and forth (just whip it)
I whip my hair back and forth
I whip my hair back and forth (whip it real good)
"uh okay.we'll put that song in the idea pocket,but i think it's not sectional's material" said mr veri "think about a song guys.sectionals is in three weeks.that's all for today"
everybody went home already.of course except for anya and eka.they were waiting for edwin to finish his football practice.actually he was practicing by himself.he usually did that to improve his game.it wasn't an official practice.he finished practice and he was changing on the football locker room.eka waited outside when anya walked inside the locker room.
"um...what are you doing he-" anya kissed him before he could even finish the sentence
she walked outside instantly "i've done it.but i don't think you're lucky this time.don't forget he got a girl.be a nice boy,ka" she said while walking away
eka just smiled and he went inside
"so?" said eka with a questioning look
"yep,i'm gay"
eka was happy of course.this meant that he had a chance with edwin.but he kept his happiness "then....you should broke up with your girl"
"wait,what?no way" he said while pulling his shirt off.abs exposed
"you don't have to prove anything,you know"
"i.....i just can't come out.not now" he said while sitting on the bench
"why?"
"sorry for saying this,but you know what they did to you at this school.i don't think i can handle that like you do" he said
"but you are you.you can't just stop yourself for being you"
"i know.and trust me,it's killing me so bad inside"
"so come out!" said eka
"i can't okay!i said i can't" said edwin while standing up and pinned eka to the lockers.he shouted that one.they stared at each other for awhile,but then edwin sat down again,putting on a new shirt "you know what i hate the most about being secretly gay?"
"what?"
"the fact that i'm not strong enough to be myself"
okay.end of chapter 13 guys.so this chapter is a bit short.and imagine how awkward it is for me to write about gay boys.kind of disgusting,but what the hell.these things are kind of important.this is why i love glee.they teach us about these things.the confusion and troubles of teenagers.not to meantion the awesome songs and jokes.so edwin is the new character.secretly gay.this chapter kinda sucked.sorry.but i kind of loving it haha.AUNTY WORO.best.aunt.ever.yeah i'm trolling here.THE TADA OMG HAHA i love em so much :* the chavo.i love evodie.he's sweet and all haha.and the last edwin line "the fact that i'm not strong enough to be myself" is soooo awesome!so my message here is,don't be afraid to be yourself.
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